a thing called LOVE

LOVE
After six months of loving, caring, sharing, all the tear drops that ever fall for you make me confidently chose you as my couple, not only for the next six or seven months but for the rest of my life.
You've taught me how to be strong and how to face up the real world which fucked me a lot.
You always LOVE me even though I've cheated on you before.
You cry for me when you misses me.
You hug me when I meet you.
You give me your shoulder when I need you to cry on.
You laugh when I make jokes.
You always there for me.
I cry for you.
I make jokes for you.
I smile because of you.
I am there because of you.
When I'm in pain, you'll there for me and when you're in pain, I'm there for you.
We are made for each other.
I LOVE YOU and I really want this relationship to last.
I hope that our plan is going to work and no one will take you away from me.
I am ready to be your wife and I'll wait for you until you come to take me away as your wife.
It's all because I LOVE YOU.

I don't know how to describe it actually

what the hell?
it's been long enough since I've been busy until I forgot to write and update this damn blog?
well, it has been ages!
the reason why I started writing this damn blog is because there's too much conflicts has happened in my life and I find it difficult to describe how am I feeling at this moment..
there's the day when someone betrayed me..
which it hurt me damn much because she's my sister!
all my life, I never ever told any bad things about her to people that I've knew of, which I knew that she wouldn't know them because she doesn't know much about my friends..
when i looked back at the times we had together, those moments were so precious to me and I didn't know that this would happened..
it's just because of those words you told your friends about me..
am I that despicable to you?
do I?
fuck!
I really don't know how to describe about it actually
but what I want to say is, please fuck off from my life because I had enough of you..

2NE1 - Lonely [Eng Sub]

lonely, yes i am so lonely

even though you're by my side, but the emptiness is still within me, 

i wonder why?

you're always there with me, always there when i cried, always there when i laugh,

but, i am still lonely

and i don't even know why?

you are so kind and gentle, 

you were so in love with me, and i like that a lot

but i am sorry, 

i can't be the perfect person for you,

because i will always feel lonely whenever i'm with you

even though you treated my like a queen

i am so sorry,

i've tried to change myself to feel alive when i'm with you,

but, i can't

i am so sorry for leaving you, 

because i was so lonely.

its a cruel world~

today was my first time of blogging since I've left it for about three or four weeks perhaps?

why?

because i was so busy solving other people's problem and i also have forgotten mine..

what is my problem?

well, i have a lot of it..

the problem with my industrial training place, with my friends, with my boyfriend and a fiancée to be..

this week was my first day at my industrial training place and it was kind of boring at first because i have nothing to do except online all the time, but in the mean time, they also need my small help with their grammar in their letter of course..

yeah, its a small matter for me..

but what is a big matter for me is about my friends..

some of them are so selfish until they have forgotten what friends are truly is..

is it so unimportant to them?

is their boyfriends' shoulders are the place for them to cry on?

no, its my shoulder!

it will always be my shoulder, my hugs for you guys and my love for you are much stronger than you boyfriend does!

do you guys ever notice that?

NEVER!

and hey you, you said that i compared you to someone else?

is it really true?

for me, its not!

its you who need to open up your damn mind and think ahead of everything..

not just keep on whining until you do not know what to do and you called another friend so that they will know all the bad things about me..

isn't it wonderful?

a friend like me who always be there when you cry, who always give her everything she had just for you, will just fade away just like the wind passing by..

yes, i know that i'm to strict with you guys, but it is how i want you guys to learn to be more respectful and to be more alert about what happens around you..

i don't need a big present from you guys, i just want to be appreciated thats all i'm asking for, is it hard enough for you guys?

and talking about my boyfriend and fiancée to be, i am getting engage but i don't know when and soon after i'll get engage i'll break up with my boyfriend instead.. 

is it cruel to you?

well, its a cruel world~

anna dan zaid, zaid dan anna

anna dan zaid

permulaan nama dan pengakhiran nama 

berkenalan pada tanggal 10 haribulan 4 2011

sekarang dah nak masuk sebulan hubungan kami

ya, memang masih baru lagi hubungan kami tapi diibaratkan pinang di belah dua

berdiri sama tinggi, duduk sama rendahnya

sejak aku mengenali beliau, membuatkan hidup aku bertambah ceria

tidak pernah pun aku rasa sedih mahu pun segala perasaan negatif yang ada

kiranya semuanya unsur2 positif saja dalam diri aku sekarang ni

anna dan zaid 

akn sentiasa bersama dan akan kekal bersama selamanya

i love you sayang

p/s: sekali sekala nak guna ayat buku sebab dah lama tak tulis karangan bahasa melayu ni..

nobody's perfect,,

i don't even know why i love this song so much,,

maybe it's because of the lyrics?

i don't even know at all,,

but, what i know is this song teach me that nobody in this freaking world is PERFECT,,

no, there no such this as a perfect person exist in this life,,

after a few times of listening to this song, i suddenly realized that i should love other people before i make then fall in love with me,, 

well, no 'fall in love' means fall in 'love',,

it means that we should treat people nicely before wanting then to treat me nicely,,

yes, i am not a saint but whatever i do, it will hunt me back in the end,,

so does you, okay?

whatever you've done to me will be turn around back at you,,

oh, god,,

i love this song so much!

oooooooooooooohhhhhhhhhhooooooooooooiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahoi!

long time aku tak tulis blog ni haa!

biasalah busy ja memanjang kan??

haha

well,apa yang aku nak start dulu yeh?

sebab banyak sgt yang aku pendam dlm memory card aku ni..

almaklumlah,memory card aku kan 12 ribu gigabyte..

haha!

aku ada beberapa senarai dlm memory card aku ni haa

salah satunya:

• peristiwa manis aku di tanjung sepat bersama yang tercinta dan tersayang tuhh
• kenangan mengelirukan dgn kawan baik aku sendiri..(pening pala mak,nyah!)

okay,sekarang baik aku mulakan dengan peristiwa yang pertama tuh dulu

cita nya mcm ni:

aku ada seorang teman lelaki, which is aku baru ja kenal dengan dia tak sampai pon a few months..

then aku couple dengan dia masa dia dapat free calls, which is his birthday lah kan..

nama dia zaidi, tapi orang panggil dia zaid ja or ed.. 

sebab senang sikit nak panggil kan..

aku first jumpa dia minggu lepas..

aku pergi tanjung sepat untuk berjumpa dengan dia buat pertama kalinya..

masa first jumpa tuh kami ada conflict sikitlah kan, di mana aku sampai bandar tasik selatan at 9 pm and dia picked aku pukul 1 am..

just because dia tak taw area tuh..

masa dia amek aku tuh, dia datang dengan abang dia and kawan dia sorang..

pas2 diorang pun jemputlah aku kan..

well, after the first meeting..

terus kami tangkap cintan..

kebetulan pulak minggu ni kolej aku tak ada air..

aku pun terjah lah sana lagi for the second time..

tapi, kali ni lagi best lah sebab aku bawak kawan baik aku sekali..

aku nak kenalkan kawan baik aku dengan kawan baik bf aku..

yalah, memula aku tanya kawan baik aku ni, dia cakap dia on ja nak kawan dengan kawan bf aku..

so, aku pon temukan lah diorang berdua ni..

haa, this is the part when the confusion starts.. 

which involved my dearest friend..

the story starts with:

aku dengan sorang kawan baik aku ni pergilah ke tanjung sepat dengan niat untuk menghappykan diri dia..

punyalah aku semangat nak bagi dia happy lepak dengan kawan2 aku and bf aku..

yalah, orang baru lepas ada probs mestilah nak happy2 kan?

aku pun plan punya lah plan, sekali kawan baik bf aku sangkut dekat kawan baik aku ni..

aku lagi suka lah if diorang couple sebab mamat ni sangatlah sweet and caring..

even kawan baik aku pon say so..

but, what makes me confused is..

she said that she like him but at the same time she also love her ex..

but what she "doesn't know" is, she was the one who asked for the break up first..

and as for me, it seems like she is so brainless..

bukan niat aku nak mengutuk tapi aku dah nasihat dia sampai aku tak larat dah nak nasihat..

sedih aku tengok mamat tuh bila dia buat macam tuh dekat mamat tuh..

yalah, orang dah suka, terima ja lah..

ko sendiri cakap nak cari lelaki lain supaya ko bole lupakan mamat tuh..

habeh tuh, kawan bf aku tuh bukan lelaki?

dia pondanlah?

apa lah ko ni, cuba ko pikir sejenak..

orang tuh dah susah payah untuk ko..

ko bole make donno ja?

apa jenis orang ko ni?

bf ko ada ka buat macam tuh dekat ko?

geram pulak aku kan..

sorrylah, niat aku tulis benda ni sebab aku geram dengan sikap ko yang langsung tak sedar mana yang bagus untuk diri ko..

orang lain dah banyak kali cakap ko bodo sebab buat macam tuh..

tapi ko langsung tak sedar kan?

aku p0n tak taw nak cakap apa lagi dah..

pandai2 lah ko pikir sendiri okay?

morale of the story:

-never ever let someone who fall in love with you fall apart just because of your foolish actions..

-always remember that everyone else also have feelings, and you should aware of that..